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Here is my cry

Here is my song of woe of my spirit

The psalm of my broken hearts and my shattered dreams

I walk and walk a thousand miles

My feet is sore and bruised

The clouds above my head been too heavy

It’s bursting upon me with showers of despair

It’s hurting me like thousand needles thrust into the back of my head

It seems like I’m struggling more than I can carry

It’s like life has given me more than I can bear

How long will it take until this all ends?

When can I turn my failure with victories?

When will my ashes turn into piles of gold?

Where’s the beauty You promised me?

I bring my weary heart

I carry my hurting soul

I pass unto Him my scars and the entire load

All I need is a rest

All I need is a rest

Or just a touch of Your loving arms

Or a single word from that lip of Yours

Or a glimpse of that garden of ours.

 

Henney plays James Parker, a young Korean man who was adopted by American parents 20 years ago. Now grown up, James enlists in the army to search for his biological parents in Korea, despite some opposition from his family. "You might regret it after you find them," his adopted Korean sister warns, suggesting that these kinds of searches tend to end unhappily. After going on TV and being reported in the newspaper, a priest eventually contacts James and helps him meet his father for the first time. However, his father is a convicted murderer on death row, limiting their reunion to only a meeting through prison glass.
     Even though the film is based on the true story of Aaron Bates, director Hwang and his co-writer Yoon Jin-Ho amp up the drama, posing a true acting challenge for what is only Henney's second film starring role. Here, the novice actor has to cry, scream, smile, and even sing, stretching every possible emotion out of James Parker. Henney does step up and delivers a believable performance, thanks to the numerous "give me an award" moments provided throughout. While that's good news for Henney, the various soul-baring moments begin to appear manufactured for cinematic purposes. By the time James delivers a public monologue about his feelings in front of passerbys and military police, one almost expects Henney to simply break the fourth wall and begin speaking to the audience. Scenes like this don't belong in reality, and they threaten to wear out their "based on a true story" credibility.

While Henney gets the spotlight for his breakthrough performance, mentions should also go to Kim Young-Cheol, who plays James' biological father Nam-Cheol. It's hard to believe that this is the actor who played the elegantly evil crime boss in A Bittersweet Life. Kim's performance as the down-and-out Nam-Cheol is heartbreaking, eliciting sympathy from the first moment his aged face and deformed body enters the screen. Kim's performance most likely helped Henney elevate his own performance as well, especially during the several emotionally intense exchanges in the prison visiting room during the latter half of the story. Their performances help in making the emotional scenes work by not crossing the thin line into overacting.
     Despite its cookie-cutter melodramatic screenplay, My Father stands up slightly above the rest not only because of two strong lead performances (Yes, Daniel Henney can act), but also because of surprisingly assured direction by a first-time director. While everyone has room to improve at any given point in their careers, I personally cannot wait to see where a bit of improvement will take Hwang's next film.

(review written by Kevin Ma)

Favorite line from the movie:

"See that? See that? This is my blood, and i beg for this blood to be his. I beg for it, I beg! I don't go to church, and I don't believe in God. But I got down on my knees and I fucking prayed, that this blood is his blood.."

What did I got from this movie:

It seems useless if i watch a movie, if I dont get any message from it. Well, this movie gave me a real deep message. That: Everyone needs a father. Who your father is, that is your identity. Jika kamu tau siapa Bapamu, maka kamu akan tau identitasmu. You can really see from this movie, how he was so desperate to find his father, so he would know his roots...

Aduh! I don’t know what to say, but oh my dear Lord… what is happening to the world this day? Oh me, oh my! Last night I bumped into this guy’s blog, and my gosh he cracks me up. He is a member from year 2007, and he already has like 2200 friends in his account!!! I’m a member from year 2004, and I only have 10% percent amount of his friends… how could that be possible??? He has like GAZILLION pictures of HIMSELF! And you know what? He takes pictures like girls… Kepala miring, hape di taroh di atas kepala pada posisi miring juga, jadi klo orang ngeliat fotonya juga harus ikut-ikut miring, karena composition foto yang aneh itu!!! Heran deh… gue aja yang cewek gak segitunya klo foto diri gw sendiri. Eh, dianya yang cowok malah foto-foto kayak gitu. Ampun dah! Next, dia pake foto dirinya sendiri buat background page FSnya dia!!! Foto yang dia pampangin sepertinya foto studio, complete with his unbuttoned white tshirt and wet hair… bwahahahahahahaha. Gay! And I’m guessing he edit it by himself, it was a very cheesy editing, you could see he put the picture on black background and then he erase the parts of the picture – a lot of flaw… AND he puts like poetries beside his self portrait yang aneh itu. Like, those cheesy valentine’s day poetry of lovey dovey feeling. Uuuurgh. Lanjut lagi scroll down, suddenly a pop up show up. It was like those slide’s of picures of himself *GASP! (gak puas kyknya dia dengan gallery foto yang udah terlalu penuh dengan foto dirinya sendiri….ckckckckck) There were two pop up, and 1 of them is just hilarious… so he puts his pictures and it has like this polling table on it he wrote “Menurut kamu gimana?” (okay, that was way too formal, actually dia nulis dengan gaya bahasa Indonesia yang sudah diperkosa, alias itu loh bahasa yang sok imut-imut yang terlalu berlebihan, jadi klo mo diucapin bibir juga harus ikut dilebih-lebihin… iiiihhh) Pilihan untuk jawabannya ada: imoet, jutexh (aih, gak bisa yang pake k aja, instead of XH???? Heran), and some other point too... but there is one that’s been stuck in my head which was “HOMORIST”… Oh gosh! DING DONG! Homorist??? What’s that? I suppose he wanted to say humorist, but didn’t know how to spell it. Homorist??? Aduh. Lagian pake acara nulis dengan bahasa sok imut sie, jadi gak jelas gitu kan. Jadi cowok kok gini sie… yang aneh pula, ada aja cewek yang mau jadi temennya dia and actually tries to flirt around him. WHAAAT??? Gee, ngapain sih loe cewek-cewek? Kayak gak ada cowok lain aja. Klo gw, udah liat cowok kayak gitu, gw remove langsung dari friend list gw. Gak mau gw. Jelas-jelas dia lebih suka nampang daripada gw yang cewek, dan juga temennya berjibun – gw jamin dia Cuma kenal deket ama probably 30 people in that list – while the rest is just unknown people he added randomly…pasti dianya juga gak jelas orangnya. Aduh, gak ngerti deh apa yang ada di otak mereka. And then again, after looking around his profile again, I’m not even sure if he is a guy. He has a picture where he totally looks like a girl, the way he writes – that stupid language he use, and that “humorist”… I think he is gay. Tapi di takut akan stigma warga sekitar, jadi dia kasih signal-signal itu perlahan-lahan… poor guy. Gak jelas gitu, mau jadi apa dia???

*SIGH. I feel really sorry for this kind of people.

okay. what are the updates?? numero uno: there is a new korean movie that I would like to watch. The casts are: Shin Minah (she played with Rain in "A Love To Kill"), Kim Tae Woo (Never watch him i think...) and Joo Ji Hoon (The guy who played in "Princess Hour"). And yes, once again another love triangle story from korea, lol. But, why will this be funny? One, it's been quite a while since I last watched Joo Ji Hoon, second: they will cook in the movie (YUMMY!!) and third well, what can i say.. I'm practically suffering from Korean Drama Illness... i have to watch this.

Judul Asli: 키친 (baca: ki-chin)
Judul Global: The Naked Kitchen
Rating Pemirsa: Dewasa
Sutradara: Hong Ji-Young (홍지영)
Bintang Film: Joo Ji-Hoon (주지훈), Shin Mina (신민아), Kim Tae-Woo (김태우)
Aliran: Romansa, Melodrama
Durasi Film: 102 menit
Tayang Perdana: 5 Februari 2009 (Seoul)

Second update came from Lee Jun Ki. Yes, the actor has flown back to Seoul, Korea... *sob. Oh well, I'll probably bump into another korean star on some other time i guess. Anyway, I just watched the video of Jun Ki's arrival in the airport. And guacamoley, there were 50 fans oh him waiting outside and when Jun Ki came up they just blow up and started to scream out his name. "Oppa, oppa, oppa..." And they were chasing him all over! Like seriously chasing after him and screaming and all.. lol. Poor him. It was 9 pm guys, come on.. The guy need some sleep. (But I guess when you're a fan, you can't really help it can you?) Well, I'm not a fan of him. But I liked him on that "Fly, Daddy Fly" movie. Well, I mean that's the only movie of him that I saw, so yeah... lol.

Anyways, hope he comes back later. or another korean Artist come again to jakarta. Then bumped unto me accidentally... hahahah.

the third update comes from rain and seven. the two korean male singer that i like... mm, lets start with seven. He is going to release his newest album on March! Yey!  He's been working with Dark Child - who has also been working with Jennifer Lopez, Britney Spears and Michael Jackson. And he will be releasing the album in America, Japan and also definitely Korea simultaneously. Next, Rain. Meng, being so tight to the training for his new hollywood movie, Rain has gain and build up HUGE Muscles!! I'm starting to get really irritated eyes everytime i see the new body of his. Okay, it's for the movie.. but seriously? Will he ever go back to his old body... I don't know about other people, but I definitely don't like his new body. But anyway, despite the changes in his muscles and body, I can't wait 'til his movie come out. I mean not only that it's his first international movie, and the fact that I'm really curious about Rain's acting skill.. but the best of all is that, the people behind the effects on this movie are the same one as the one who did the effects of 300!!! How cool?? Oh, i can't wait! Hope it'll come soon...

okay, i guess that's all the update for now. I don't think I'll be going online for a while. Because I will be leaving to Jababeka again... it's either tommorow or the day after; I'm not quite sure yet. Okay, eventhough I get a chance to check the net, I don't think I will be able to post anything.. but oh well.

P.S: I just watched a video of Jun Ki's Fan meeting... and seriously, is there any korean guy that can't dance? I mean even Jun Ki can dance!! I was surprised, never thought he could. Seriously, any korean boy that can't dance??

You walk down when I asked you to stay

As usual you will get your way

You close the door

Then you stumble down to the street

Where you wring your hand and you drag your feet

When the words can’t find you to crawl inside you

I’ll bring all the warning bell, “Be careful, you’ll hurt yourself”

Of this lie, lie, lie

They adored you

I’ll be the one to tell, “Be careful you’ll hurt yourself”

Gonna try, try, try ‘til the morning comes

You can’t hide standing under

These stars know everything, know where you are

You’re in your head you’re all turn around within

And they’re shining down the lights to bring you back again

Back where I can’t find you to crawl inside you

I’m bringing all the warning bell, “Be careful, you’ll hurt yourself”

Of this lie, lie, lie

They adored you

I’ll be the one to tell, “Be careful you’ll hurt yourself”

Gonna try, try, try ‘til the morning

All you want to see is make believe it’s nothing

The weight down under me

I’m bringing all the warning bell, “Be careful you will hurt yourself”

Of this lie, lie, lie

They adored you

I’ll be the one to tell, “Be careful you’ll hurt yourself”

Gonna try, try, try ‘til the morning comes

You ought to know this… “Doing nothing is tiring”. Believe me it is. I am jobless, my photography course is done and I have nothing left to do. Okay, I admit I have that painting to finish for the competition and I have university entrance test. But, other than that I am unemployed most of time.

I’ve recently watched Titanic again on one of the national TV Station, and I think Rose’s line was best to describe this situation. No matter how loud you scream, no one in the room seems to hear or even care about you. When you have nothing to do, the hour in a day seems to go so slow. The slower it moves, the more it suffocates you within. When you find nothing to do, you get very agitated and all you want to do is scream to someone about it to help you. Like, “Give me something to do! Hand me something!”

What’s bad being unemployed for too long is that you start to settle yourself in that comfort zone. Your body starts weakening from having hiatus, while your mind starts wearing out of creative ideas from being imprison from the outer world. You’re not socially retarded (thanks to the internet service), but you don’t experience much which then create an outcome of dull idea – or even worst, almost turning into a plagiarist mind. It’s like you’re wondering around the desert, when you finally find an oasis you feel so comfortable being in there, and then you start building your tent. Each day you decided step out of the tent, but then you realize the day is still as hot as it always been; then you decided not to get out of your tent. Then under your unconsciousness you spent too long inside to even be bothered to come out again…

Also when you don’t have anything to do, your mind tends to wander off alone. Your breathing starts going off on it’s own pace, and combine with the scary fantasies you have in your mind… it will start suffocating you. Even though you’re strong, but you will never be able to fight this one. It’s like no matter how many times you try to assure yourself that everything will be alright, you never feel satisfied and no matter how deeply you try to take a breath it never gets to the bottom of it. The air hangs in there; stuck.

Within, you start to wonder what to do? You try so hard to find something, but you don’t find one (not because you don’t have any, but you couldn’t see it; we don’t try enough sometimes I guess). Then you start getting agitated, restless, troubled or disconcerted. You start thinking what’s wrong with me? Did I do anything wrong to make all this came up? Or any of those self-pity questions. This is the part where other people usually start thinking of making suicide as an option. Or if they don’t, then they tend to find something and thinking that it was exactly they should be doing; even though it’s actually not. Like, instead of learning something new they spend hours watching DVD movies – because they thought that was the right thing to do to make the boredom flee away.

But, when you still couldn’t find anything to do, you start having these loud noises within you; screaming for people to hand you something to do. But, what we usually forget was it wasn’t other people’s job to hand us something to do. We were the one who ought to know what to do; we were the ones who ought to make the choices. Because it’s true, no one will hear you even if you had screamed until the top of your lungs. (If a person hadn’t kill their self at the previous stage, then here would be the stage they will do it… usually)

When you’re young and alone, it is much easier for you to drift off with the world. Without a mentor to help and guide you up, there is no assurance that it will be easy for you to make the right decision for yourself. Learning something new, learning to make decisions – especially in real life was never an easy thing to do. It takes time, it takes quite a while… I was never the person who was able to make decisions based on a long term thoughts or right and wrong comparison. I let people around me take the decision for me; and I realize it wasn’t the right thing to do. It is not easy. But, I don’t want to promise myself another fake oath. But I will try; though it may take a while.

I did not write this for anyone. But, I wrote this to preach unto myself. “Be careful, you’ll hurt yourself…Be careful, it will be all too late.”

Today I went to Mall Of Indonesia. And no, I did not go there to shop or to spend the weekend by feast my eyes. I went there for a workshop. Okay I admit that I actually wanted to go home. I figure I could go with Felix to Kelapa Gading then go home and save up 2000 off my transport money. But, somehow I was “dragged” by Felix and Ridzky and ended up in front of the workshop room. But you know, I was thankful I took the right choice to pay up and join it.

Why? Numero uno: FREE FOOD!!!! Hahahahahahaha. The potato was gooooood and so was the siomay! (what’s siomay in English anyway? Dumpling? Wait I think that’s different actually) I haven’t had my lunch yet before, so it was pretty satisfying to get good food for a moment. Lol. Then second: I didn’t actually notice. But, when I sat down and looked around, then I saw the big backdrop of the stage. I was trying to find out who was the photographer speaking today. And guess what? Out of the thousand of fashion photographer, somehow Nicoline Patricia Malina was chosen! Okay, I am a recent fan of her works, yes it is a bit sensual for me, but for me her ideas are extravagant – that’s what makes me interested in her. So, anyway… I got excited!! And still am.

She was prettier than I thought. Well I mean it’s a no wonder, because before she became a photographer she actually took fashion design course, then became a make-up artist and then modeled for six years. So, no wonder she was as pretty as her models. She was lean, pretty tall for and Indonesian girl and she talks pretty slow. I don’t know maybe she has trouble speaking Indonesian now, or she is the gentle kind of girl. Anyway, the question and answer session was kind of okay, almost boring. But, here’s the point that I got.

1. It’s okay to have more than one skill, especially if they all may strengthen each of the other abilities. Like her, she took fashion course, be a make up artist, then she did modeling. It all sums up and strengthen her ability in photography. She understands photography and her experiences makes her able to perfectionize (is there even such word?) the whole picture… the make up, model, outfit, lighting, etc are all in they’re best – which then able to create a great picture.
2. You have to have your own signature style in your creation. Nicole isn’t like any other Indonesian photographer. Most of her works are more sensual, sexy, grand and glamorous at the same time. She dares to open up and wasn’t scared about it, because her interest was to show the beauty of women’s body. She succeeds in that. You know when you see her works, you can say, “Yes, that’s Nicole’s!”
3. Any borders, limitations, shortage of equipment should never stop you. Nicole started shooting with only one light and she depends on the sunlight. But, that didn’t stop her from creating pieces. And what’s amazing about that is, she actually still uses that light and technique with continuous light in her recent photos.

Actually there are some other points, but I forgot as I write this (but believe me, I remembered it before, just a while ago…;) and the others weren’t as stuck as those 3 up there.

Moving on after that talking-talking session, we had a little break as we waited for Nicoline to set up for a demo. The model for the day was “Julie” – if I’m not wrong. She was very French, European look. I don’t know, I’m just guessing. But I think she is, she must be…

As Nicoline starts taking pictures, everyone starts gathering in and just took places to take pictures too. Okay, there was only one model, the place was cramped and there were about 30 photographers trying to take pictures. It was confusing. Especially it’s actually the first I’ve been to this kind of thing, so it was pretty new to me. I didn’t get good images from the right side, so I moved to the left side. There I got good images, but I was totally in the middle. I had a man holding his camera near my right ear, Ridzky was above me, and another man on my left side. After a while, I didn’t only catch good images, but also cramp feet. So, I decided to back off. It was enough.

I ate pudding then the demo part was done. Nicoline talk for a little while more, then voila the workshop was done. Gifts, appreciation, awards, blah-blah-blah, wohoo. DONE? Yes. PHOTOS? In fartsy pieces please!

(I took 89 shots on the workshop, only 6 that I think made it as a good one)

P.S: I have 3 new brushes! I’m going to paint this week! How fun is that? How fun is that to dump your maths book, even though you know you’re having a test in 6 days… how fun? I mean seriously how fun is that; to paint and to fail your uni entrance test… how fun? I’m dead serious, I am so spoiled!! HELP ME.

I accidentally bump into this blog, and wow talk about full resource area. This blog has everything you need about K-Drama. Like from the soundtracks, reviews, and even the news on each of the artists! What an effort…

Anyway, I went through the blog and then found this article… and oh, I laughed my head off. It’s soooo funny, because it’s soooo true! Thank goodness, I don’t think I have been that influenced by K-Drama… hahahaha.

So read it:

Thursday, May 1, 2008

You know you've watched too much kdrama when...

1. You wear converse shoes even if you're poor that you can't afford food.
2. You never wear the same outfit or jacket twice even if you're poor.
3. You drink soju anywhere and anytime.
4. You don't take the taxi nor car to go to the hospital. A guy has to piggy-back you there.
5. You do a U-turn in the middle of the street without looking if there’s any car because you know there's never a car on the side where you turn.

6. You run after the bus for to catch your girlfriend even if you have a car.
7. Your guy will piggy-back you home when you drunk.
8. As a thank for that, you'll vomit on him.
9. You guys cross each other on the street but somehow you never see the other person.
10. One character has always had to have a terminal disease.
11. If your nose is bleeding it's probably that you have cancer.
12. You never have to pay the bill when you go eat.
13. If you get hit by a car, the chances are high that you'll lose your memory.
14. When you kiss someone just press your lips onto the other persons and wait...
15.When you order ramen in a restaurant, never finish the bowl, only eat a few noodle.
16. If you don't want to take someone's phone call, don't press the off button. Take out the battery instead because it's cooler.
17. If a girl returns from America, France, etc. it's 100% sure that it's the main character's long lost love.
18. You go to sleep with make up on.
19. You wake up with your make up ready.
20. If you take the bus, it’s always empty.
21. Either you’re a bitch or you're an angel, there's no in between.
To be continued...

Posted by saturn at 7:53 PM

I found this funnily true!! Especially on point number 10, 11, 13, 14 and 16. Lol… And after thinking about it, number 10 and 11 may also apply to Indonesian Movie. Like seriously… take for example that movie starring Ms. Acha Septriasa – “Heart”. Cyriosis?? Then all the sinetrons… uurgh. They’re all sick people in those movies! Bwahahahaaha, except that the blood didn’t come from the nose, it came from their mouth when he/she coughs. Or when they have cancer, suddenly out of nowhere they could somehow fell and then faint or even worst they could go into coma. Lol

Anyway, find the link to the website in the link directory, please!!

I don’t know about other people, but I love being so called “single”.  (Well, this is a pretty bold statement, ey?)

Anyway, lately I am curious about those young girls (hahaha, as if im that old), who actually are already on a date with a guy at their age. Geez! Don’t you have any other thing to do? I’m not jealous believe me; if that’s what you’re thinking. But, come on, seriously? I mean even I have a lot of things that I wanna do in my list. You guys have more time than I do, don’t you wanna do something else that taking care of that guy? There is a time for you later on, why do you wanna waste it now?? WHY? I’m talking like this because I have been there. And I really am annoyed every time I remember that I actually chose to spend time SMS-ing a guy, instead of taking like a drawing lesson or something. Gak worth it!! I could’ve done something better than that. If I actually re-count all the credit that I spend on that guy, I think I could pay for one lesson of a photography lesson! Arrgh!

Anyway, why do I like being single? IT’S SO FREE! I get the chance to look around as much as I want; hehhehe. Kidding. I mean being single means I don’t have to worry about another person; I mean like seriously, a lot of time I can’t even take care of myself – how am I suppose to care for another one? And without anyone by my side I’m having hard time to focus and keep myself on track, especially when I have to think for another person? That’s two reasons that I usually give to people when they ask me the “do-you-have-a-boyfriend” question. Here are the reasons behind those reasons, the actual ones.

1.        I understand fully that right now that is not what God wants me to do. I fully believe that He has greater plan for me than just to “hook me up” with a guy… that is why I’m not in any relationship. Truthfully, I want to (so it would be a lie if I say I’m not in any relationship because I don’t want to). This flesh of course gets jealous to other couples. But this is not about whether I want or not, but it is all because God hasn’t say anything about it; He never mention it in His plans. Not for now I guess… it’s far-far away.

2.        I am fully aware that I don’t have enough activity right now. I don’t want to build a relationship only because of I don’t want to feel alone in valentine’s day or any other one of those “alone” day. I don’t want to find a boyfriend only to be a person who I can send message when I don’t have any class or only to be someone who can take me dinner on the weekends. Well, I hate that kind of lovey-dovey relationship anyway, so yeah…

3.        I am in love with the Almighty. I’m enjoying my moment to get myself closer to Him; I can’t even be bothered to go to another. I want to try to keep up with Him all the time; and in order to accomplish that I have to make sure that I am fully focused unto Him. If not, I will fail. This is why a boy is not a necessity. Well, at least for me IT ISN’T.

4.        I am preparing myself for who ever will be my partner later on. I know I still have SO MANY things to learn about being a woman (of God of couse…;). I just read this recently - Proverbs 31:30 “Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing, but a woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised.” *Gasp. Widih, gawaaat!! It’s no-easy job, this one thing I can say. My mother for example. So, I want to make sure once I’m in a relationship, I am ready for my partner. I hate stupid lousy relationship, when it comes to this thing I am serious about it. So, I am also serious in preparing myself. Ngomong aja masi cablak, ketawa kayak hyena, loncat kayak bajing, duduk masi gak bener… *sigh.

So, those are my reasons.; when I dress up – it’s for Him, when I create – it’s for Him and when I try – it’s for Him. I mean thankfully I am content. That’s why really, even that POND’S advertisement doesn’t affect me. Itu tuh yang the one with the “could this be your love story?” tag line thing… lol. (Okay, from a cinema point of view it’s good, but seriously? Would actually believe that by being white-skinned you can have a happy ending love story like that? GET REAL!!)

Anyway, Happy Valentine’s Day people… Enjoy! Because I am – hahahahaha, see those pictures? I just need a bag of chitato, a pack of oreo, a cup of tea and my camera. VOILA!! I’ll be okay. Yeah, everything’s alright.

I tried to calm down and take deep breaths.

I’m trying to make myself get dressed

Instead of filling my brain with useless imagination I used to have when I was a kid –

Like thinking I am actually a foreigner from mars;

For I was too scared to face all the tribulations on earth...

I’m holding on to myself, so the broken parts don’t fall apart.

I’m going on my own way now.

You might think its incompetent, and just how inapt my way of thinking is.

In fact, if I were you I would also be laughing at me for doing all this

Also for having such a high standard dreams.

But, I have got to do it.

I know I have to.

Everything will be fine;

All I have to do is to stay strong.

I know help is on the way, all I got to do is to hang on.

Everything, yes everything will be fine in no time at all.

Through all this I will make it out as gold, for all this will make me glow.

I’ve found all reasons; I’ve screamed it out loud - 

Now I’ve got to make a step on it.

For there’s a long journey lies ahead,

I make myself ecstatically welcome the eighteenth year of my life here on earth.

So what the heck do I need to be from mars for?

Everything is only a detail in my fabric of existence and once everything is done,

There will be a point of time I will grab my crown.

(wrote this quite a while ago; kinda weird as a poem, but oh well...)